Since the summer I seem to have only written a blog post every month, as opposed to twice a month, which has been my schedule before. I haven’t really planned it that way, but I guess I haven’t felt the same drive to write like I did before. I’ve been plodding along with my process, but not really feeling a sense of completion with any of it, and so I’ve been unsure of what to focus on with my writing. I have also felt the need to be a little more private with certain things, too, and not pour forth everything that I’m going through. But now we’ve reached the end of the year, and I feel called to look back and review a little bit, my experiences, my challenges and my breakthroughs.
When I look back at what this year has brought me, two incidents stand out to me. The first is that the twin flame connection moved to someone new, and that threw me for a bit of a loop. I knew it could happen, as I’ve heard of other people experiencing that, and I suppose I have also experienced it once before, but still it surprised me quite a bit. The second thing I want to mention is that there have been some things opening up for me concerning my mission. I think all that really came in with the new twin flame, as they seem to be connected, yet at this point I don’t really know what will come of it all, both the connection and the mission.
Music, spiritual (ascension) coaching and working with the mentally ill and disabled are the areas that I have felt called to in different capacities, the latter being the one that entered the scene this year. Despite the fact that I have worked in this arena for the last 6+ years, I didn’t really see it as a potential mission area, until this year. The previous twin flame was the one who helped me open up to my creative flow musically once again, and although I hope I will continue to create music for the rest of my life, I don’t really see that as a mission area in and of itself, although I can use it of course to back up my other work, and to express myself artistically, which I find rewarding.
The spiritual healing and coaching work I still don’t know about, but I have felt called to dive deeper into astrology recently, and treated myself to my first astrology reading for my birthday (and Christmas gift) to myself. I bought a book on karmic astrology, also, which I look forward to reading, and may do some courses in the new year. I’m not sure at this point if it’s purely for my own benefit that I want to do this, or if I’d like to offer it as a service to clients in time, but I have found that it is an important tool for me on the ascension journey, and that it helps me to understand myself and my journey on a deeper level.
I’ve been a little bit all over the place when it comes to my current job this year, as I felt for a while that I wanted to find a new job and even applied for one. I didn’t get it, but am still thinking about wanting to work more with the mentally ill as opposed to the mentally disabled. I’ve talked to my boss about this too, and it sounded like she is willing to help find something for me within the current company that I work for, but she would also like to keep me there, and have suggested that I can focus on more of what I like in my job, like providing music and yoga for the clients. I have already started doing that a little bit this year, and plan to do more of it next year. I’m also thinking about creating a rooftop garden and grow vegetables and the like together with the clients, that we can use to cook with.
So it looks like I may want to stay there a little longer for the time being, as I feel things have gotten better there towards the end of the year. Yet I still have it in the back of my mind that I want to work with the mentally ill, although I suppose it’s good to focus on bringing in more of what I’m passionate about where I am currently, before I bring that along to a new place, or perhaps start up my own place, which is still in the back of my mind too. So I suppose my current twin flame has helped open me up to this whole new line of thinking when it comes to my mission, and that I feel there is something within the area of mental health for me.
Whether there is something more there than that, I don’t know. I felt a couple of weeks back that something had happened that could get in the way of us having a relationship, but I don’t know what it is. I felt like he was a little sad or felt bad about something. The previous twin flame got another woman pregnant, so perhaps it is something like that…? I don’t know, but even if it is, I don’t think it will affect me in the same way that it did with the former twin flame. Yet I’m not gonna say that it won’t affect me at all. I’m pretty sure I still have stuff to heal around “the other woman” and my abandonment wounds are still there, albeit perhaps not so potent as before.
My father passed away about a month ago, and some things came up in relation to that, although to be honest I didn’t feel it so strongly. I felt some grief of course, but I also felt like I didn’t have any unfinished business with him, and so I am at peace with that. In the midst of this I had an issue in my home, where something bit me at night. I thought it was bed bugs at first, but it turned out not to be that, thankfully. One of my friends reacted quite strongly when I said I suspected I had bed bugs at home, and that affected me a bit, I have to admit. He made me feel shunned, and I think that must have triggered some negative past life experiences within me. I never saw a specific past life, though, but I don’t think that’s important, either. I’m feeling better about it all now, yet I think I need to have a talk with my friend, as his reaction was completely exaggerated and unnecessary, and I don’t think it was okay.
All in all, though, as far as my process goes, I feel quite good these days, with more and more positive energies of love and light flowing into my heart and mind, and that is something to celebrate as the end of the year draws near, and also something to build on for the new year. I’m feeling more love for myself (and others too, as an extension of that), than I ever have, and will continue to expand that feeling as much as I can and follow my guidance as far as both my mission and opening up to love, is concerned.
And with that, I would like to wish you a 2025 full of love, light, peace and prosperity! I hope you had a 2024 full of growth and uplifting experiences, even if it may have been challenging at times. I suppose that is unavoidable, as the ascension times we are in, do require more of us than life has in the past. But if we tap into our inner guidance and our connection to Divine Source within us, I know we will pull through.
Love & light always,
Divine Love Alchemy 