Eclipse Season, Throat Issues & Dreamtime Activations

We’re well into October and fall is definitely here (in Oslo, Norway, anyway), with colder temperatures and lots of rain. And we made it out of eclipse season, barely 😅, although as far as I’m concerned it was a doozy, and I’m not done processing it all yet. I’ve been dealing with a sore throat on and off for over a month. The worst of it has subsided now (at least I hope so 🤞), but I still feel tired and in recovery from it all. I guess it’s the season for it, but as I never take anything at face value, I, of course, don’t think that the sore throat was a coincidence, but all related to the eclipse energies and where I’m at in my process….

It started a few weeks back, when I’d had a few days where I didn’t sleep so great, and felt tired. My throat also started to get scratchy, but I didn’t feel sick really, just a bit run down. I was in the middle of a big project at work, too, that I needed to finish by the end of the month (of September), so I didn’t really have the time to get sick, and was able to keep it at bay and get the project done. I recovered more or less from the sore throat, but then the build-up towards the solar eclipse happened, and I felt tired again. This time I had slept fine though, so I knew it wasn’t that. After a couple of days, my throat started acting up again, at first with some pain when swallowing, then my tonsils got swollen (especially on the right side), and finally I had a full-blown throat infection.

I had to take a couple of days off work this time, to recover, but it took all of last week to do so, and it finally began to let up on the weekend. I took supplements, gargled with salt water with a drop of thyme essential oil, took oregano oil, used a throat spray and got as much rest as possible, and that seemed to do the trick and I’m on the mend now. However, I still feel tired, and could do with a bit more rest and time to work through some things that all of this has brought up for me. But tomorrow I’m due back at work for a 4-day stint, and I’m not sure that I feel quite ready for it yet. I’ll give it a shot, though, and fingers crossed, I will pull through. Or get some more sick leave, if need be…

As I started to look back at what has been going on in recent times, though, I realized my sore throat debacle had everything to do with me standing up for myself and putting myself first, speaking up for myself, so to speak. I’ve had two incidents lately, where I had the opportunity to do so, the first one with my twin flame, where I (finally!) chose not to do something just to please him, when I really didn’t feel ready to. The old me would have done it without even thinking about it. The second incident was at work, where there had been some mix-up with my vacation days, and I was told I had less days left than I thought. I was sure that it was an error in the system, though, caused by my recent change in schedule and working less hours. After some back and forth, and me not backing down, I was found to be right in the end and the error was corrected.

I suppose these two incidents were small matters in some ways, yet to me, they felt like kind of a big deal. In the past, I may have just let these things slide, thinking that it wasn’t so important to speak up and stand my ground, but as my process has made clear to me over the years, is that I have a tendency to people please, and put everybody else’s wishes and needs above my own. Now I feel it’s time to stop doing that, and start to please myself first and foremost. Not in a selfish way, of course, but to protect my own integrity and practice self love. My own needs and wishes are important, and nobody but me can know what is best for me, and what my needs are. So it’s time to make them known, and to not be afraid to do so. Or at least not let that fear hold me back, as it did feel a bit uncomfortable to stand up for myself in this way, I’ll be honest about that.

And I believe that is where my sore throat came from. There were some deep seated issues and old traumas that were being cleared out with this sore throat, and my speaking up for myself opened up the pathway for that clearing to take place. I discussed the issue with a healer friend of mine, and according to the teachings she follow and believe in, the sore throat is the repair phase of the inner conflict that has been, or is in the process of being, resolved. This made a lot of sense to me, as I had already taken the steps to speak up, and then the sore throat repaired and “reset” my throat chakra, as I healed and released accompanying difficult feelings and fears in the process.

In the midst of all this, I had a dream, where a healer in the dream (not someone I know in real life), put his hands on my chakras, and I was encouraged to make sounds to release and heal, each one at a time. When he got to my sacral chakra, a lot of sexual energy was released. I’ve had a lot of issues around this particular energy and have had many things to heal around it in my process, as is true for many people, as society and past experiences have traumatized and conditioned us to a great extent, both men and women in different ways. There has been a lot of conflict for me around embracing this energy as a part of me, and also when to allow others in, as in opening myself up to another man in that way. I think I have felt very protective of myself in that sense, and had a hard time opening up to it fully, especially thinking that there was something wrong with me in not being able to share it more readily.

Society often puts so many labels and demands on women around this, such as if you do it too easily, you’re a slut, but if you don’t do it at all, you’re a prude. I think I have felt into both those opposing ideas, and a lot more besides during my process. Yet in the dream, I realized that my sexual energy is mine to do with as I please, and it’s not about pleasing others (it can be that, too, of course, but only when I am willing and it feels right). It’s a powerful energy that can be channeled into so many wonderful things, not just sexual encounters. Once I realized this in the dream, and that it was not attached to any particular man, the healer continued working his way up my chakras, and when we got to the throat chakra, I began to sing, and my voice was so strong and clear, like I’ve never experienced it in real life.

I see all of this, both the dream and my experiences of speaking up for myself, as a step into more of my power, and embracing more of my authentic self. Which feels really good. I realize there is still more work to be done in this area, but I have laid down the groundwork in a manner of speaking, and now I just have to keep building on that.

This turned out to be a rather long post, so I’ll wrap it up there. But I hope you are navigating the eclipse season and beyond with the strength and grace that I know you have in you. I wish you a beautiful October, and as always send you much love & light!