I’m a day late in getting this post out, and I suppose I could have waited another week to write, but I felt the urge to do it now, so here goes. It’s only my own personal commitment, to post something every other Friday, so if that changes every once in a while, it’s no big deal, I suppose, although I generally like to try and stick to my schedule. Anyway, it has been an intense week, both with the energies, my process and getting back to work, and I’ve been feeling very tired and needed to integrate and rest the last couple of days.
I suspect there is some heightened solar activity at the moment, that is causing a lot of the intensity I’m feeling, plus we had a full moon in Capricorn last Sunday that most certainly stirred up some heavy emotions to be cleared. The 8-8 Lion’s gate portal is also approaching, so there seems to be a lot happening both in the skies as well as internally, at least for me. I suppose there was a little bit of anticipation for me in getting back to work, although I actually felt fairly calm about it in the end, and was ready to be back. In order to move forward in my life and process, I felt it to be an important and necessary step, so I was ready for that.
Having said that, this last Tuesday, the day before I was due at work, ended up being a very intense day for me, where a lot was coming up for me and I was feeling quite emotional at times. I went out to a coffee shop to reflect and journal a bit about what was coming up, and ending up writing quite a few pages, and had some major revelations. I find that I have been feeling the need to journal more than usual lately. I’ve done it on and off over the years, some periods more than others, but as things have heated up quite a bit in my own process in recent months, I’ve picked it up more consistently. I find it is quite helpful in gaining clarity and processing some of what’s coming up on my healing journey. The blogging also helps me with that, of course, but lately that doesn’t seem to have been quite enough.
Going back to work proved to be more helpful than I had expected in gaining clarity for my way forward. Or perhaps I hadn’t expected it to be that fast. Of course, there are still things that need to fall into place, but so far I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be. I certainly felt that there had to be some changes when I went back there, as I feel I would be stagnating if everything just continued as before. On the very first day, though, I actually was assigned to be one of the people in charge (we always have one or two people of those on the shift assigned that duty). I had been thinking about perhaps wanting to do that more at some point, before I went on sick leave, but haven’t felt quite ready for it until now. And it didn’t happen very often either, but now it did, and without me even saying anything about it to management.
I also seem to have been assigned that duty throughout the next shift, too, so that’s kind of interesting, although I’m happy about it. I’ve felt the need to step up more, and hopefully make some positive changes at work (if I was supposed to stay there) and this I suppose might be a sign that there is more for me to do there, and I’m presented with a way to be able to do so. We’ll see what it all brings, but I feel it’s time to take steps now, although I have to admit it also brings up some trepidation and old fears, but I just need to work through that, and not let it hold me back. And trust that I’ll be guided through it all. I really do feel that guidance now more than ever. Although I’m scared, I really do trust, too, and feel that this process and all I’ve been through is beginning to culminate into something exciting and positive.
I’m also glad that I have a slightly lighter schedule now, as I have a feeling that the intensity won’t let up any time soon, and I’m really clearing out some deep seated stuff now, that is all necessary to get me to where I need to be, to be able to step into my power and mission more and more. I feel it’s all happening now, and I’m kind of freaking out over it a little bit, to be honest, but I trust all will be well. Just need to take deep breaths and keep on trusting the process and my guidance. And remain calm. That’s easier said than done sometimes, but I know that the universe won’t send me anything I can’t handle. And if it gets too much, I’ll just have to take a step back.
So as things are heating up in the skies, in my life, and in the world at large, I hope you’re able to take good care of yourself and trust your own guidance, too. And do some journaling if you feel called to, in order to gain some deeper clarity and understanding. Trust me, it really helps!
With that I wish you a beautiful day, and as always, send you much love & light!
Divine Love Alchemy 