Identity, Mission & Expressing Your True Self to the World

I took a break from writing last week, as I’ve come down with a pretty nasty flu (or Covid, maybe), and been quite sick for the past couple of weeks, roughly. I even had to take some extra time off work this week, even though I didn’t go in the last couple of days of my shift before then either. This rarely happens when sick with just a respiratory illness, but it did happen the first time I had Covid a couple of years ago, and apparently, now it’s happening again. But my body seems to call for slowing down and getting rest, so who am I not to listen to that. Gotta practice what I preach….

So I’d hoped to be able to go down to my favorite coffee shop and write today, but I still don’t feel quite ready for that yet. But at least I’m back to writing, so that’s a step in the right direction. I’m curled up on my sofa with a blanket and a nice cup of ginger tea instead, and ready to reflect on some of the themes that are occupying my thoughts these days, which the headline above gives a little hint about.

After coming off the Eclipse season and month of April, which is one of the most intense periods I think I’ve experienced in my process to date (or intense in a different way to prior experiences), I’ve felt the need to slow down and integrate all that came up (Taurus season giving the perfect opportunity for that). And case in point, I got sick, so I really needed to slow down, apparently. Since a lot of what has come up for me recently has to do with mission, and what that means to me, taking some time off work (since my job is related to all of that), was probably not a bad idea either, as there are things going on there that I need to reflect on and integrate also.

Speaking of mission, though, I have on at least three occasions come across either articles or videos around that subject of late, that talks about our mission having less to do with a job or career, and more to do with who you are. For the longest time on my ascension journey I’ve picturing myself becoming an ascension coach, healer or something to that effect, as I was attempting to start my own coaching business right around the time when I had my kundalini awakening back in 2017. Yet I had to put that all on hold, as my life as I knew it unraveled completely, leading to me divorcing my husband at the time, and moving back to my birth country of Norway. I’ve kept trying to get back into my coaching biz from time to time since then, but something always kind of held me back, or I felt blocked. So I had to just let all that go while healing and going deep into my wounds and past traumas, as this journey tends to bring up.

In the meantime, I got a job as a care worker, taking care of mentally disabled people, and although that has been both challenging and rewarding work at times, I never really thought of that work as my mission. I always just thought of it as a means to pay my bills, and that there would perhaps be some lessons to be learned and growth to be had from it, but never my mission per se. Yet as it seems to be the time on my journey where the question of mission is front and center, my view of this job seems to have shifted dramatically. I began to think that I don’t think there is a coincidence that I’ve been in this job for so long, and that it has more significance than I first thought. Also, the desire to just be of service has come up for me, and I feel that it doesn’t really matter that much to me anymore in what capacity that is, I’m open to Spirit making use of me any way it sees fit.

It has been apparent for a while that there are many issues in the place I work at. I work for a private company and the ways things are managed seem to be centered more around making money, and not so much about the care we give to our clients. This is something that has bothered me from the get go, and is of course an issue with many companies and institutions in our 3D reality, yet this has to change for us to move on to a higher level of consciousness, or 5D, as it’s also known as. Recently I heard or read somewhere (I don’t remember where) that some people have the mission of changing some of these institutions from the inside out, and that idea seemed to have stuck with me, that perhaps that is something I could do. I feel at least that I have to be open to that possibility and give it a try. It feels a bit daunting, but I do also feel that it’s not like the people around me don’t care about the clients, it’s just that the focus and the way the business has been set up hasn’t been centered around them, but that can change…

So let’s see what happens with all of that. Another option could be that I’m better off serving that type of clientele elsewhere, but I trust that I will be guided in this, as with anything else on my journey. I do all of a sudden feel a lot of love for my clients though, and that I really care about them and want to fight for them and their needs in a way I haven’t really felt before. At the same time, I also would like to perhaps get back into teaching yoga and do some spiritual coaching, as that is a big part of who I am and also feel important to me. And I will continue to create my music, as well. But if mission is more about who you are, your identity, then perhaps all of this, and more (such as being a star seed and twin flame) is all part of my mission. I suppose it’s less about what I do, and more about being true to myself and express that, in all areas of my life and in the places I find myself.

I suppose it also bears mentioning that as I’m pondering all of this, my flu this time has mostly sat in my throat, which as far as the chakra system is concerned, is our center of expressing who you are to the world, your authentic self. I don’t think that is a coincidence either, and it feels as though I am clearing out (detoxing in a way, both physically and emotionally), blocks that I have in this area, wounds and fears that have been holding me back from expressing my truest self and allowing what I’m passionate about to shine through more. So I hope and trust that as I recover from my illness and regain my strength, this newfound purpose will start to show itself more and more in my life. And that feels exciting!

With that I sign off for today, but I hope that you find some inspiration in my words today for your own journey, and in expressing your own truth to the world. We all have something to offer and something unique to bring the world that nobody else has, so find it and bring it!

Sending you, as always, so much love and light!