Sitting at my favorite coffee shop overlooking the Oslo harbor, I watch the ferries come and go, and the people bustling about. The day started out quite gloomy, but seems to be clearing up now, as the sun is peaking out from the clouds. This apparently goes right along with my mood today, as I felt quite gloomy and down, actually, when I woke up and during the first half of the day. It took me a while to get going with my writing, as it seems to be one of those days on my journey where I just feel a bit frustrated and fed up with it all. Thankfully, I don’t feel that way so often anymore, but it does occasionally rear its ugly head, today being one of those days. Although, as the clouds are lifting, my mood seems to also, and my writing is starting to flow, so let’s hope the worst is over…
We just came off the Easter weekend, and we’re in the middle of Eclipse season, so the energies have been, and continue to be strong. There seems to be a lot of talk in awakened circles about the upcoming Solar Eclipse on April 8, and the month of April as a whole is supposed to be the most intense month energetically this year. Although the month has just begun as I write this, the energy leading into it has already built up quite a bit, with the Easter and Eclipse energies being the biggest part of that build-up. I’ve been feeling it all quite strongly myself, which is probably why I’ve been feeling moody today, as things are shifting and clearing for me once again, and I’m working to gain clarity on the next steps on my journey.
The Easter long weekend (as we have quite a few days off around Easter here in Norway), was spent with my brother and the kids. We rented a cabin up in the mountains, which has become a bit of a tradition for us in recent years, and it was really nice to get away for a bit and spend some time in nature. Quite a bit of stuff came up for me while I was there, and I had trouble sleeping some nights, but I feel it was the perfect place to be, to be able to ground and integrate what came up for me. Going skiing and lots of yoga and meditation helped move the energies through and out of me, and although I still don’t feel that I am quite done with that process, some things are beginning to fall into place.
I don’t think I ever quite realized the energetic power of Easter and the strong resurrection energies that it holds, but last year I felt that quite strongly for the first time (I wrote about that here, if you’re curious and want to read more), and this year too, the energies were strong. This year though, since Easter happened to be right in the middle of Eclipse season, the energies of the Eclipse may have overshadowed the Easter energies a bit, or, the energies of Easter sort of blended in with the overall energy of the Eclipses. Be that as it may, I still had a bit of that resurrection feeling happening, and again it seemed to tie in with the weather, as we had snow and overcast weather the first few days of the weekend, but then the sun came out on Easter Sunday.
On a side note, we have in recent years been very spoiled with lots of sunny weather at Easter. This year was actually the first year I’ve experienced mostly gloomy Easter weather since I moved back to Norway. But for some reason that didn’t bother me at all, and I was still happy to be outside in nature, skiing and spending time with my family, whereas in previous years the weather would have affected me much more. I feel this is a sign of how far I’ve come on my journey, and that I can be in a more stable mood that doesn’t seem to be so affected by what’s going on around me (today’s gloomy mood excluded). So that is nice to see, but back to my main point…
Since we’re still in the Eclipse portal, there are still things to work through, and the Easter energies made this portal perhaps all the more powerful, at least that is my experience. For me the theme at the moment seems to be mostly about my mission in life, and although that is a big question, and of course, can change throughout life too, it’s about where I’m at right now with that, and what steps to take going forward to move closer to it. For quite some time I’ve felt that my job as a care worker didn’t really have anything to do with my mission and was mostly just helping me pay the bills and providing some life lessons in general, but now I’m starting to think maybe that’s not the case after all…
Of course, it has helped me with all the aforementioned things, but digging a little deeper, as I was able to do during the Easter weekend, I started to feel that maybe this work is part of my mission too, in some ways. It’s interesting, but I remember that I went to see an intuitive counselor about 10 years ago or so, and she saw me working with disabled people in some capacity, which I totally didn’t buy into at the time. But here I am, doing exactly that, and although it has obviously taken some time, and working through a lot of resistance on my part, I’m beginning to think that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. What that means exactly still remains to be seen, but I don’t think that I have “wasted” nearly 6 years of my life in this job and I do feel that it carries more importance than I first thought, so let’s see what unfolds.
And let’s see what the rest of the Eclipse season brings, perhaps it will shed some more light on the situation, so that I can shift my focus where it belongs and start taking more targeted steps to where I want to go, that is in alignment with my soul. It’s exciting times, and only getting more interesting by the minute…
I hope you had a beautiful Easter and that you are moving through the Eclipse portal with ease and grace, but also gaining the clarity and healing you need (which is, let’s face it, not always easy or graceful, but it always gets us where we need to be, as long as we’re moving with the energies, not against them). With that, I wish you strength and healing through the Eclipses and beyond, and as always, send you much love & light!
Divine Love Alchemy 