We’re in the month of November and the end of the year is fast approaching. November tends to be a dark and dreary month in the parts of the world where I’m from, which may go right along with the fact that much of the month is in Scorpio season. Yet if you know anything about numerology, it’s also the 11th month of the year, and the carrier of the frequency of master number 11. As the sign of Scorpio may wants us to dive deep and face our own shadow for profound transformation, the master number 11 brings spiritual awareness and a deeper connection to our intuition, higher wisdom and psychic power. Although this may seem like two opposing focal points, they can certainly go hand in hand, if we allow it.
As we come off the powerful eclipse portal of last month, the energies have lingered, slowly allowing us to integrate any lessons that this eclipse brought about. It was an intense one for me, as I was brought face to face with my own dark past, and how I’ve used my sexuality and feminine power in not so positive ways. It invited me to look at ways that this may still affect me today, and I can see that it does, in subtle ways. In today’s society it’s not uncommon for women to use their sexuality to get the attention of men, as well as gaining favor in other ways. This is certainly an issue within the music industry, where many female artists in particular, although male artists too, to some degree, seem to be expected to use sex to sell their music. Although I don’t think there is anything wrong with dressing or portraying yourself in a sensual manner, as long as it feels authentic to you, it can be a tricky area to navigate and making sure you do things for the right reasons is important.
It’s not the first time that my process has brought up this issue for me. As a musician and singer myself, it’s an area that I have reflected quite a bit on. Your image is part of who you are and what you put out as an artist, and to me, it’s important to keep integrity around my artistry yet also allowing myself to express my sensuality in a way that doesn’t feel cheap or inauthentic. Part of the ascension process is discovering our own motivations for why we do certain things, and we often tend to be influenced by society and underlying trauma, as well as past experiences, be they from this life or previous lifetimes. The trick is to sort out what comes from where, release and heal anything that has a negative influence on you, and make new choices based in a healthier mindset.
Although I don’t think I have been guilty of using sex in a prominently negative way when it comes to my music, when it comes to men, it may be a different story. Since it intertwines with my abandonment wound and my need to feel loved, sex is certainly something I have used in the past to attempt to obtain love, although of course, it never truly works. Love, and feeling loved, first and foremost needs to come from within yourself, and when you can embody that fully, any unhealthy need for attention or love from outside sources fall away. So the eclipse and Scorpio season has helped me to look at this, and how I still have some stuff to heal and release around this issue, and I feel I’m coming more and more into integrity with it all, which is a beautiful thing.
Now moving on to the other topic of this blog, the significance of 11:11. At the risk of getting too stuck in the shadow and digging into the past, it’s important to counterbalance it with a focus on the spiritual and seeking the higher wisdom from it all. The point of doing these deep processes is in order to heal and uplift yourself. Although things are beginning to feel lighter now, there was a time, especially in the beginning right around the time of my kundalini awakening, when I really felt like it was going through the dark night of the soul. During that time I saw 11:11 everywhere. Although I sometimes don’t want to put too much emphasis on that, at the time, it really made me feel like the universe had my back, and that I needed to trust.
I felt very guided at that time, as intense as everything was, and I have experienced that from time to time throughout my process, yet I think that recently I have lost track of that connection and trust to some degree. Although I still believe that I am guided and that the universe has my back, I feel it may be time, and perhaps perfectly timed this November month to begin to tune into my guidance system more, and talk to Spirit and the divine guides that I know are there, but perhaps don’t appreciate enough. And on 11.11, or November 11, may be a particularly great day to do just that, although I intend to keep doing it on a regular basis, to dive deeper into that beautiful connection also, not only diving deep into my shadow, although that is needed from time to time, too, of course.
So I hope that you also take some time to connect with the divine this month, and your own guidance system, as much as you also face your shadow and release anything that no longer serves you. I wish you a beautiful November month, and I invite you to use it to go within, especially when there may not be much reason to go outside, with the gloomy weather that tends to be inevitable at this time, at least in my neck of the woods.
With that I say goodbye for now, and send you, as always, much love & light!
Divine Love Alchemy 